My Crazy Cow

I´m just bored of everything...

In the past months nothing has changed... or maybe something has changed and I don´t know what it is? Sometimes I feel like everything is the same and that my life needs a little bit of excitement.

I want to do something new... or something old that I haven´t done in a long time. The same routine and the same people (I like you, people-I-know, so don´t take it personally). It just makes me bored. Every morning it´s difficult for me to start the day, getting out of bed and do my everyday activities. There´s something missing...

I am selfish! At least, that´s how I feel when I say or think things like these. I know there are more important things in life than excitement or change. And I know that there is people with more complicated and serious problems. But I needed to express it, so I chose my blog to do it.

The problem is that when I´m feeling like this I start to find defects in everything and everyone. I start to hate my room and my furniture, my work, my university (wait, this one truly is defective), myself, my music, etc. I can say that, in some way, past relationships have ended because of this. It is more easily for me to find defects or to highlight old defects on my girlfriend when I´m like this.

And it angers me that noone around me notice this... noone does anything. And it angers me more the fact that I want someone to care and to do something. It is selfish!